SUB-ZERO SUCCESS

Complete Contradiction

I've had the chance, the past few weeks and months, to reflect on what it would be like to live as a SocioNihilist, as far as the theory goes already. A paranoid glance over the shoulder, expecting a trail of ash, traces of chaos and a vengeful consequential ghost, sucking out your consciousness with a single cold stare.

I wasn't far off.

It's a strange life, compared to what I've known sofar. Not that I've practically changed the way I lived, it's just got more background to it now, more of its own. The skeptical optimism is just one of the many elements that makes SocioNihilism comforting, yet disturbing at the same time.

No matter what the trouble, life goes on, because it all means nothing anyway.

It's great to live this way, but it's hard to live with other people who do hang on to morals, people who feel that the things which are important to them should be important to others as well. Materialistic issues, philosophical issues, religious issues, social issues. To the SocioNihilist they mean nothing, and whatever their outcome, they won't affect him.
However, they will affect others, and those others will often find that the SocioNihilist also should be affected, and if he is not, there is something disturbingly wrong.

It's awfully hard for others to understand the lack of interest and value someone else can have for such issues, if not impossible. It's a spiral of inability to understand and accept, really.
The SocioNihilist (SN) is not affected by a certain change in materialistic or social matters, and is frowned upon for this indifference. He isn't affected because, to him, it doesn't apply any change in value or meaning or importance, because there isn't any to begin with.
Accordingly, the SN is viewed as respectless, showing no understanding, unaware of what is valuable in life. Obviously, because again, those things are completely relative to the SN, of not unexistant at all.

From there, things can only go downhill for the SN and his relations with others, as long as those others fail to understand, accept and live with the SocioNihilist point of view and way of life.
So the problematic situation is not due to lack of respect and understanding from the SocioNihilist, but due to lack of respect and understanding from others who feel that their points of view and way of life are more valuable and superior to those of others. They take it too personal, the SN rejects all morals, values, truths; the postmodernist (foolishly believing individualism is realistic and powerful) fails to see the bigger altruistic picture, and experiences but a selfish insult.

Not that pointing fingers changes anything.

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Which brings me to the next point of this first SocioNihil article ever. What is to become of all these naive-narrative theories and pseudo-progressive practices?

So I've been thinking to myself what it actually is I wish to achieve with all this.

For the biggest part of my conscious life I lived expecting nothing and preparing for everything, as to live with as few dissapointments as possible. Pity mankind came along, it's the biggest dissapointment I've come across sofar.
Ironically it is mankind that has made an art of creating irrelevant and meaningless expectations, searching for answers to questions that no other conscious creature ever felt like posing(, probably still proud of himself because he asked that question for the first time, so it MUST be smart and important).

And to what purpose?
Fallacies to create a sense of purpose for mankind, like stories to hush frightened children.
Fallacies to hide from our pointlessness and meaninglessness under a blanket, like children forcing their eyes shut, "what I can't see, can't be there".

Fallacies to cover up for our fallacies, like frightened and troubled children, caught in the maze of their own lies that were supposed to make things better, but instead have made things far more complicated and the parents far more angry... The dilemma...


SocioNihilism has no point, and it's exactly that property of the entire thought and theory that makes it efficient, because it links with the human reality and its place in the universe: it's all pointless. There is no purpose, there is only survival.

So why continue this tedious process, causing frustrating inevitabilities like assaults on the messenger without hearing the message, discussions with the use of meaningless terms and arguments, words seeking coherence but missing all good intentions?

I never saw myself as a messiah or one who wants to change the world, or even a fraction of it. Perhaps the destruction of philosophy is my only goal. Or a part of it.

I suppose I should accept, for now, that there is no defined purpose for all of this, let alone one that is realistic.

Luckily, nothing is absolute.

So I continue filling these pages with SocioNihilistic chatter, quite aware that it is all pointless, and quite comforted by that as well. I don't expect to achieve anything with it, and I'm quite prepared for any outcome.

Quite disturbing, isn't it?


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09-07-08